iphone notes, lists, poetry

iPhone notes sep 12- 20

things I’ve said this week, to myself:

I want to be one of the good ones
You know about my secret everything
I want to remember you
I want to be sweet
I have a headache, do you have a headache
How are you so always yourself

Acceptable
am I acceptable
are you acceptable
are WE acceptable

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The letting go of things,
it feels like:
a headache
low blood sugar
death defying
ill-fitting socks.

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Motherhood burns through me, like 

battery acid on mid July

asphalt,

right down to 

the core.

Oh

heart of wood,

are you petrified?

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faces.

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“I felt around in my heart and it was not so cold or so hard.”

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Meeting downtown 1-3
Talk to Nathanial
Make a template

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West coast- Coconut records
is this song nice or annoying
decide

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Look up curly short ish hairz  like Kiera knightly and T swift etc

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Can I work until 6 on Thursday?

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Things to google:
How to stay fit while “recovering”
How to deal with my crazed ovulation personality naturally
How to fix Clem’s chapped lips

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things to help PMS; ovulation craziness, according to the internet:

Diindolylmethane/ DIM

spearamint tea

Magnesium

No animal products or high heat foods

Reishi mushrooms

IS THIS TRUE, RESEARCH

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Ask JL about taking kids so I can go to San Diego on oct 3

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I just want to be able to run again
Maybe I made a huge mistake.

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poetry

things I wrote during lunch this week

the hollywood sign

laughs at me as I speed, di-

sheveled, down Sunset

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low-pile carpet burns

my knees when I’m down on them,

not that you would care.

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the THREE of them they

hold me hostage with anti-

cipation and want.

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I’m still embarrassed,

that thing I said to you that

you don’t remember.

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you touched me in those

dark sweet places but it was

just a midnight dream.

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the thing on my desk

it says GRIEVANCE in all caps;

I think about sex.

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give me three minutes

and 17 syllables

I’ll tell you what’s what.

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