R.I.P. Johnny, 2004-2014

Now that I don’t care about you anymore, I have very little to write about. I feel like an alien in an alien world. Lost and alone but not in a sea of sorrows. It’s all so fresh. So presh. Just right.

It’s time for a rebrand. A shake it off. A one-two-three ta-da.



burnt toast

you didn’t come home

until the very next day

you shuffled in, electric 

energy from other hands

still circling your

ashamed feverish head

like Saturn’s halo 


your naked finger tapping,

rubbing worn-thin


rust red trousers

dodging questions, dodging

glances: a sideways

dagger-eyed bride


children circle like

knowing natives,

moon round faces, 

pool and threaten to overflow

you reassure them,

I provoke, compensating,

like a surgeon, I cut in


monologging interrupted

by your cell phone,

it jumps and sways and

moans under the weight

of its ripe truth;

toast is made and burned

and remade


salty thick peanut

butter on fingers and lips,

like forever,

six in the morning,

it was your birthday

toast always burned,

i like it better that way.

old poems, poetry


futuristic heartbeats will sound more like police sirens, i think.

the hair on the back of my neck won’t relax when I feel your eyes on me,

they must not understand how in love I am… though, don’t you think?

I wish she would stop talking,

I wish she would stop talking.

my intentions. (guilty).

her voice is too quiet to be heard, I don’t want to hear it.

off with her head.