The name of my memoir should be “against my better judgement”
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Should i dye my hair this color?
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The sun magazine
–> look it up
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Appt:
Bruising ?
Hard to breathe feeling
BLOATING WTF, why do I look five months pregnant, google says this is a thing!?!
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Remember to:
Sign kids up for school lunch
Pay Internet
Water power gas etc
UCLA form
Library fines
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to look back at old
photographs,
It makes my stomach
turn.
to take new
photographs,
It makes my stomach
turn.
always
turning,
turning,
turning.
like tina.
like the byrds.
like the mother fucking chicken
I just killed for dinner.
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“I don’t know everything but I know some things and one thing I know is that your brains are REALLY REALLY SUPER DUPER IMPORTANT. It sends notes to your arms, your legs, stomach, back, and all your body parts.” – Clem
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I keep
Pushing your picture
Further and further away from
The present tense
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Burroughs’s list for 2015-16 accomplishments:
– sign B up for something (AYSO?art class? Guitar?)
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Dear Jennifer,
Hello. I would like you to know a few things. Here is a list of the reasons I love you:
1. You are very beautiful
2. You are very, very, very generous with time/ money/ energy/ etc
3. You feed me when I am too tired to feed myself
4. You feed me when I have just eaten
5. You feed me in general
6. Your love for people is tangible and practical and visible to those around you
7. You are a dedicated and enduring mother
8. You are a dedicated and enduring wife
9. You are the most hospitable human I have ever encountered on planet earth
10. You are fun to be around
11. You are an attentive listener when I need an ear
12. You look hot in a bathing suit
In short, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, to an amazing creature. I adore you.
Love,
Liz
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“when you get to season three of the regular show it’s hilarious because Mordecai has girl problems exactly like dad. He breaks up with Margaret but still hangs out with her and then hangs out with his new girlfriend CJ too!” b Law
“I just want to make my own YouTube channel about boy things, you know, with a cool name like Stunter, or B boy, or something like that, with skateboarding tricks.
But you don’t know how to skateboard
well I could learn, right”
– B. Law
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TELL ME WHAT YOU KNOW.
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Therapist:
What do I want
Do I want less custody
Do I want to a job instead of grad school
What do I want in a person
If I could have my perfect magical unicorn life what would it look like
(Write it all out this week)
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Clementine: I just pooped like an adult!
(I discover this means sitting on the rim on the toilet with the seat up)
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The problem with nut butter is that no matter how much I do or do not eat it never satisfies me, I feel the same way about sex drugs rock and roll and most things, except for broccoli because it’s fucking disgusting.
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emotional barf
trail mix, body aches
life in minor key
babies and messes
and hearts on fire…
there are many
inconvenient truths,
he was right.
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Me and my baby
We eat peanut butter off a spoon
We bathe once a week
We sneak out at dawn
We fight in grunts and guttural noises
We go to sleep
We try to dream.
Humble pie and grown up things
Me and my baby
We do and we do and we do
What we do.
And that’s the end of that.
(Maybe I am at the end of me.
Maybe He is at the beginning. )
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Paper towels
quarters
kombucha
bananas
tortillas (both kinds)
greek yogurt
avocado (lots)
apples
kale
melons
BLUEBERRIES
heavy cream
almond butter
peanut butter
ground beef
chicken
eggs (x 2)
nuts
toothpaste
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dream haiku
her name was Feather
nurses costume latex gloves
syringe in left hand.
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les blank movies:
spend it all
gap toothed woman
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diapers
bathroom cleaner
new sponge
nail polish
new dishwashing gloves
open bank account for baby
pay internet bill